In the recent past, I’ve been thinking a lot about, my being obsessed with too much of a stuctured & perfection - both in personal life and in the day job. I’ve always liked to plan things in advance and complete my tasks to perfection. Being organized and attention to detail has always been priority for me. I suspect whether I had acquired this nature of mine since the childhood, inspired by my father and also from being a very active Boy Scout. My father being a very dedicated government servant in his entire career, has always served any organization he worked in a well planned & organized manner and completed his duties to *perfection. Similarly, he maintained the same high standards for anything and everything he did at home also. Being on time for any appointments and finishing any tasks on time has always been an important thing for him. In scouting, I learnt to *Be Prepared all the time. I was heavily invloved in planning & orgnizing both indoor and outdoor activities in the Scout Troop.
I believe, my obsession of being too structured & perfection has most part has helped me in maintaining my high standards, specially in the day job with increased depenability, which is a good thing overall. However, on the flip side, it has also contributed significantly bringing frequent anxieties, unfortunately. Lately, as a workaround to over come frequent anxiety, I’ve been trying a few things like, keeping a control over checking emails when not at work, spending more time under the neem tree, starting to read & keep a Bullet Journal and spend time in coinversation with my favorite 10C community. Though, I haven’t experienced remarkable improvement just yet, I expect to see even little improvement to the current status.